Princess Jennifer, my Owner, has ordered me to write a 1800 words essay on why i need to serve and worship Her. i’m very proud that She would give me this opportunity to elaborate on my addiction to Her guidance, authority and abuse, though i doubt i’ll be able to write these 1800 words one shot but i know i’ll finally make it.
How shall i start this? First of all, those who are not really into this should know that in this community, people usually consider some of us are born to rule over an army of lowlives, while the rest is here to crawl, obey and worship their Superiors. As for me, i still remember the day i came to term with the fact i did belong to the mass of submissive males whose life can only be complete if spent serving a smarter, younger, meaner, superior Goddess. i can say this was nothing short of a divine revelation to me, a real shock, as that incidently meant the end of my old self and its male ego. For when i look in the mirror nowadays, it’s impossible for me to see anything but a pathetic excuse for a male with a growing need for feminization and heavy degradation.
However it is fair to say i haven’t gone all the way yet, which is why Princess is planning to train me again and again and take me deeper to the depth of complete dehumanization. She’s simply going to break what’s left of my former self, then rebuild it to her own standards. In a word, i’ll be Her freak, a drone unable to resist the appeal of Her finger snap.
i’m so young to this though. Indeed, the fact is for all the fuss i make about it i never went as far, until now, as to suck a real cock, which i know Princess is planning to have me do asap. Talk about distance betwwen fantasy and real life.After all, i was born a 100% straight guy and things like this don’t come easy to me. Yes i’m craving Princess Jennifer’s training because i am convinced She’s the only Goddess on earth with an ability to effectively mindfuck me, modify my behaviour and sexual response and penetrate deeper in my soul. By constantly increasing the amount of humiliation She forces me to go through, Princess is going to make me a totally different person or, rather, a mindless drone reactig to Her stimulation the way Pavlov’s dog did.
As a starter, since i spent the whole week on a business trip, Princess required that i wear frilly panties on a permanent basis, which i did of course. A simple task indeed, but i can’t even come close to describe the effect this new habit had on my perception of who i really am. After a week like this, it’s like i’m not sure at all i was born a male and i tend to think even my co-workers felt i was not the same.
But let’s not derive from the initial question i was asked to answer: why do i need so bad to serve and worship Princess Jennifer, my Owner and GOD? Well, there are in fact many ways to answer this, most of them related to my subjective, almost religious approach of a D/S relationship. However, i would like to stick, here at least, to totally objective factors of my addiction.
1. Princess Jennifer is the most charismatic Dominant Woman i ever heard of. Her will is impossible to resist. Period.
2. Princess is half my age and i can’t help feeling like being owned by such a young Goddess is the most exciting thing that could ever happen in my boring life. Any orders She gives me is a blessing.
3. Princess is wicker than any other domme i know. It’s important. Personally, and i’m almost certain to speak for many fellow subs in this community of sort, i tend to stray or lose interest as soon as a ‘domme’ treats me better, is being nice or even starts to interact with me as if i was Her friend, confident or adviser (which of course would never happen with Princess Jennifer as She surely doesn’t need any advice from lower forms of lives such as i).
4. Princess is painfully intelligent, brillant, intuitive, thus always thinks well ahead of me. She knows what’s in my mind before i know it. She guesses how her slaves are going to react and always moves one or two steps ahead of them so that they never fail to cave in her long planned scheme.
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